The Constant Lovers
The Constant Lovers is an experimental non-fiction text begun in late 2017. Simultaneously investigative, ambient, and autobiographical, this space aims to function as a digital companion to the early, exploratory phase of the writing process.

Last update: 02.13.2018

The myth they chose was the constant lovers.
The theme was richness over time.
It is a difficult story and the wise never choose it
because it requires a long performance
and because there is nothing, by definition, between the acts.

- Robert Hass, “Against Botticelli”

We’re waiting to cross the street, somewhere in the midst of West LA. It’s night, warm. Late Autumn. Pizza and beer for dinner at the only good spot near his home. It’s been unusually warm all fall, even for Los Angeles, but the worst is still yet to come.

When are you going to write a book, he asks.

We’re waiting for a break in the cars.

I shrug. There’s a new boldness with which I am attempting to shake off the weight of my dependency on words.

I don’t know, I say. Maybe never.

And with that, we run.

[Fig. 02-03]

[Fig. 04]

The nostalgia I feel when in Boston—when even seeing Boston—is so intense it becomes almost grotesque.

Repetition with increasing abstraction
Distortion of chronology

“The soul in love, and in question.”

(who said this?)

“Yet the organizing principle of Concord Days is much looser than it first appears. Far from an authentic six-month window into Alcott’s life, the book offers material written over a span of more than thirty years. It’s an eclectic scrapbook of Alcottiana, including excerpts not only from the journals of various years but also transcripts of conversations with adult audiences; biographical sketches of Hawthorne, Emerson, Margaret Fuller, and others; and even a long extract from the once-pilloried Conversations with Children on the Gospels… In the background of the work, the seasons change. Apples blossoms appear, Independence Day comes and passes, and near the end, autumn breathes cooly on Walden Pond... The structure of Concord Days both reflects and denies the passage of time.

- John Matteson, Eden’s Outcasts

[Fig. 06-07]


It is a(n):

cultural exploration
autobiographical record
dialogue with past selves
disguise for anger
attempt to map the terrain of intimacy
interrogation of desire
thematic free association

“A male, apart from the mad moments when you love him and he enters you, always remains outside.”

- Elena Ferrante, Those Who Leave and Those Who Stay: Neapolitan Novels, Book Three


Knowable vs.

NYC, 2009

The record

 of a single year
within its finite duration and chronology,

also contains all the years
that came before it.


Fig. 01  Francesco Mosca, called Moschino
Fig. 02  @velvetcoke
Fig. 03
Fig. 04
Fig. 05  @benjaminholtrop
Fig. 06
Fig. 07
Fig. 08
Fig. 09  Various artists
Fig. 10  Various artists